Now, having HSITA last tutorial. then is exam liao. lolz.
hmmm... i have a topic in mind and will like to give my opinion. haha.
I do believe that every single person in some part of our life will consider this question. "If i were a better person"
If i am a better person, more caring, more sensitive, understanding then this will not have happened. Sometimes, i feel that i am not a good friend. Mainly because, i feel that i do not spend enough time with them (sec and pri friend cos not in the same school, dun have the time to meet each other). Like, i didn't notice that their bday is coming, forgot to wish them happy bday, buy the, present, dun noe what they like and dun like etc. I find that i do not actually understand them. lol. Felt the distance. Ya. When i realised, i suddenly felt very down, want to do something, but not sure what to do. " Why am i not a better person?' if i am more caring, underwstanding. Am i not a good person? Then when i started to reflect, and dig out all my negative point, i felt stressed and useless. ya, stupid right. But i am sure that every single one of us experience this in certain part of our life.
I have a friend, not mentioning who, felt the pressure, peer pressure, that she dun have a boyfriend. Cos most of her friend have a boyfriend or at least have an ex boyfriend before. She was damn depressed, She wanted to have a boyfriend. She is envy of her friends, she also did what i did, go thu the same process of self-doubting. Ya. stupid but unavoidable. lol. hope she can see that not all her friend have a boyfriend, i do not and i have no problem with this.
I will wait for my prince? to appear. Meanwhile, i will be patient and wait for the day. lol.
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